Lets begin with.. being a reluctant to accept good advises.
Painful mistakes could have been avoided if i would just listen to advices given from the elder.. especially my own father.. and being a teenager at that point of time, we'll only think of other reasons just to have it our way.. and that is what I have done.
Well Guess WHAT, not everything we decide on are Right Choices anyway..
For example, getting in a relationship.
Aahh.. something so common I'm sure everyone can relate to this.
First 5 months:-
Wuu... this guy/girl is so cute, and he/she has a crush on me.. I wanna get with him/her. Oh yeay~ Im his gf/bf now.. Im having the best monthly anniversaries ever! Cool, nice gifts too. I like him/her alot la.. maybe love him/her. yea, i love whats going on right now.. life is so good. So nice to argue.. wont lose wan.. Im having things the way i want it.. Fairy tale life dream come true.. Miau...
Months after that:-
Damn.. I've never seen this part. What happened to him/her giving in to me? I hate arguing now.. I'm insecure.. he/she forgotten our anniversary? Hey, how come no time for me. What is this! Since when computer games/clubbing existed..? Im not hawt or good enough? Eew, That action was irritating.. did you just fart in my presence? that is disgusting!!! I can't take this nonsense. Not nagging!! Stop being such an emoian.
Oh dear.. Things are sure falling apart aren't they? So whats the conclusion after... lemme guess.. Break Up? Then what? Lose that person you've been used to.. that friend, that special someone you share things with, that person you "love"? Such a waste isn't it. When you could have just remained and good friends.. now he's/she is your ex. And so are you to him/her. What a title to carry.
Don't get me wrong, this isn't my drama story... but look, we've just slapped ourselves on the face again.. Because of a silly rebellion. Its no doubt..a victorious feeling to have things the way WE want it to go.. but did you think about the consequences of what that decision brings you? Its BITTERNESS and Regrets. Yes? No?? Keep the answer to yourself. I've got my own to settle.
If you are the person that grew up with an empty space in your heart.. Don't rely on the comfort of men/women. Its never going to be enough.. Men/ Women can't fulfill the desires of your heart.. Not being a religious person.. but in my experiences, only one person can.. and thats God. No kidding. When you do that, you'll understand what I mean.
Right now, Im going through a tough time with my relationship.. but whatever it is.. I'm committing whatever that is gonna happen in God's hand.. I can't handle it on my own.. my emotion takes over me often, but this time..Im gonna trust God in this. Surely, He has a reason for whatever happens. He probably planned all this for me to learn something.. Im gonna trust him anyway la.. Because I know He loves Me. Perhaps you should too.. and be a miraculous living testimony to others.. heh~! Oh well, we'll see..
